One year ago today my whole life changed in minutes.
My marriage ended
My privacy vanished
My safety was compromised
My body was violated ex

I’ve spent the last year starting over, emotionally, mute physicallytydte , and geographically.

I made the decision to not let what happened to me harden my heart. I began to date again and, for awhile, I was happy, I found love. I put aside my fears and delved into another relationship.

Promises and plans were made, he knew what happened in my marriage and he knew about my past, but….

I picked the wrong person, again, and was absolutely crushed and betrayed.

When I think back to a year ago, I’m no longer angry, I’m heartbroken. I love being in love, but my last relationship has taught me another valuable lesson.

Maybe I’ve missed out on so many years of the human experience that I’m not truly capable of understanding what it means to be in a relationship. Maybe I’m not able to pick my person or maybe there just isn’t a person out there that is right for me.

I have a lot of lessons in acceptance ahead of me and still some grieving to do from my marriage and the mental and physical fallout from my last relationship.

Sadly, I may also need to grieve the fact that I may never be emotionally capable of finding the right fit.

One year ago today everything changed and not all for the better.

Now what?