So, the word “felon” has been quite the descriptive adjective lately.

Let’s talk about that.

Anyone who knows me, knows, I am not a fan of the government, any government. I equate the whole red/blue, left/right to a ridiculous gang war full of liars, cheats and people who don’t give a shit about you, no matter their “colors.” In fact, street gangs have more concern for their members then any political party I know about. Regardless, they are all dangerous and destructive.

But, I digress.

Lately, I have made some strong decisions to put plenty of distance between myself and those who don’t seem to realize their opinions about current events are a direct reflection of what they think of me.

Let me explain….

Felon. This adjective is commonly used, with great distain, to describe Trump and why he should not be President. I thought my circle understood how that label hurts the formerly incarcerated in society. Felon has done us a great disservice as we try to create the lives we want. Yet, the people who are supposedly supportive of me, have no problem using it with every negative connotation possible. If this is how you really feel about felons, then you and I don’t need to be in each other’s lives. Just because he’ll never change, doesn’t mean the rest of can’t.

Those of you who have taken offense Biden’s clemency for those on death row. I’ve seen your comments while you troll social media. You have called the people on death row, monsters, said they deserve death, they are unredeemable. Even though two of the men refused clemency, because they insist they are innocent. Considering the death penalty has been wrong 11.875% of the time over the last 50 years, there is a strong chance those men are not the monsters you paint them to be, but innocent.

But, whatever, right?

My conviction, in 24 other states, could have resulted in the death penalty, same goes for Kelly and dozens of other women, that I consider family. They are not monsters. I am not a monster, but I guess you think I am.

I have seen judgement passed on the women who have come out against Trump, Diddy, and others, for sexual assault. Words like slut, whore, liar. I guess that’s what you think of me. I can never press assault charges, but if I did, would I be a slut? That’s what you think of these women, so that’s what you think of me. This is one reason why 63% of sexual assaults go unreported.

Two years ago, I was pregnant.

At my seven week appointment my baby was struggling, I chose to go on progesterone and lay low, because I would have done anything to save my child. At my nine week ultrasound, my baby no longer had a heartbeat.

Roe V. Wade had been overturned and I was refused an abortion and sent home to miscarry. When I went back for my check up, I was told I didn’t pass all of the fetal tissues. I was septic and if I didn’t have surgery that day, it could be deadly.

The septic tissue in my uterus affected my fertility and now, without unaffordable IVF, I can no longer sustain implantation naturally. But, your opinion is abortion is murder, and women shouldn’t be allowed abortion access. Yet, another reason for you to label me a monster.

For 18 years, I didn’t have choices, I couldn’t choose who was around me, my opinions got me into trouble, my actions were dictated by the government, I was punished for free thinking. For the last nine years, I have been agreeable. I realized how precious life and time is, so I adopted a go with the flow attitude, sacrificing my own wants, needs and opinions, for the sake of being agreeable.

But, how long am I just supposed to sit and listen to people talk about others, others who are in the exact position I once was, like they are worthless monsters, deserving of death.

Oh, but I don’t mean you Kellie.

Yes, yes you do. You don’t get to make blanket statements about groups of people, groups that pertain to me, and think I shouldn’t take offense. Guess what, I AM OFFENDED, because I am no longer wasting my precious time being agreeable.

Its not about politics, its about opinions, YOUR opinions.

Everyone is allowed their opinion, just as I am allowed to distance myself from your opinion when it makes me feel like shit. I have put a lot of distance between myself and dozens of people over the last few weeks because I just don’t need that negativity in my life.

I miss that person I was when I first joined the world, before the ugliness started to darken my soul, before social media. Social media that I have deleted because it turns out the hatred people harbor for monsters, murders and felons like me is too much for me to handle any more.

I will not ignore your hatred, I won’t. If you hate the group I belong to, you hate me. Plain and simple. Most likely, there are others in your life that you’ve hurt with your opinions, but do you care?

Its called “bigotry” people, Google it.